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I'm glad May 18 has passed. It was just a day after all. All day I felt like talking about it and at the same time not talking about it. I felt like calling my mom but I knew I would cry. I knew I would cry if I let myself drift off, instead I sort of floated between a sort of peace and tension. The rhythms of our lives are remembered in our bodies, muscle memory, moved by the moon. We are cyclical beings. I got home fully ready to stretch and dance and smudge and meditate. The reality was though I just wanted to be very quiet and curl up on the sofa with the cats so I did. Its done now. No dreams last night. I'm very glad those 24 hours have left for another year.

I watched this, this morning and I feel lively again. Good morning! Do not smile while watching!

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Yes, 10/6/96 is the day of the pit bull attack, but it was Jeffrey. I relive that day in my mind from time to time, certainly on the anniversary, but as years pass I feel less angst. We never forget these events but can learn to make peace with them.

Yeah, when it's one of your children, I imagine it can be worse. Sorry for the mix-up of the boys. Life is definitely a mixed bag.