good

I'm feeling very open and ready to jump back in.  I've been thinking about why as we get older do we become more afraid of life and what it can bring? The stages of a woman I guess. I became afraid in my mid 30's.  I lost something.  But I've been gaining it back.

 I want to be the cool open spirit I see in my mind, the kind of woman I've always admired.  I want to start taking some cheap trips, open up, shrug it off.  Grow my hair long, wear lots of rings, take pictures and communicate with people.  I want to read and write.  I want to live my life and meet whomever I meet.  It's quite exciting to feel this way.  Guess  I want to be a hippie who shaves her arms and legs and wears some makeup.  My head feels very very clear, eyes open.

I like this.