surreality

[openscarf]

Life is surreal and when it's obvious that it is surreal, it flows along with little regard for gravity or logic.

Do I pick apart every remembered moment of every dream seeking justice? No, I shake my head and chuckle at the dream memory of the mangy dog who asked for a drink of water so I turned on the hose for it. I forget now, but I did figure this one out for myself at the time.

I can approach 'real' life this way. Treat it as a series of symbols. For reasons I don't fully comprehend, I'm working an entry level job. It's not like I have a Ph.D, but I do have my four years and I did supervise a team, made decisions, offered input, etc. I did a job that currently 2 and a half people are now doing.

Today while waiting for checks to be printed that I would sort, distribute and stuff into envelopes, I saw my former team member and the person who has a lesser version of my supervisor position, coming back from somewhere, red eyed, mellow, spacey. Neither one went past high school.

People are leaving our company for greener pastures. I wish I was head hunter material, I'm not. My finding a job I feel valued in that fits my values will come about because I wanted it and can see myself somewhere better and so opportunities will flow from that energy. It's hard!

I'm back to basics on this. I'm starting with just writing in my journal, positively, what I want and saying it to myself. I've done magic before and I'll do it again.

I miss yoga. This bone graft scenero is kicking my ass. The timing of it is surreal. I want to feel good and strong, but I have to accept the healing time and lay low and rest. I want to start giving my place a good cleaning, stocking up on the basics for cooking and fun for Christmas and go to Thrift Town and buy myself some clothes. I'm ready for funky fab clothes.

Doc appointments, mental & dental, preliminary hearing prep, then the hearing. Maybe a break then.

Comments

Your time will come

[dadadadio.livejournal.com]

I know what it's like to be in job limbo. You're simply doing the job, day to day, with no eye on the future ...... unless it's someplace else.

Changing jobs requires three things, a level of discontent where you are, the confidence you can succeed in another place, and the opportunity to prove it.

You're just looking and waiting for the last piece of that puzzle, opportunity. Keep your eyes and ears open, consider all possibilties, and remain patient until another door opens.

You're paying bills with your current job, no more, no less. We hope for more in a career but sometimes it's just a job.

The economy is a little shaky. Having a job while looking for the next move is better than what some people are dealing with.

I hope opportunity knocks sooner than later.

[jojoisabuzygirl.livejournal.com]

one foot in front of the other. walk through this...but like
Don said, keep your eyes open for opportunity. The economy is rough...don't make an unecessary move...I'm assuming your current company will work around your court dates? Wouldn't bet that a new business would.

I probably am seeing 30-40 grown people a week who have no resources left (job, unemployment, family or friends to borrow from). Desperation is a bad place to be.

A few of those I am seeing are Head Hunters...who are being laid off...be careful...one foot in front of the other...you will walk through this

[openscarf.livejournal.com]

Thank you both. You're right there is no way I'm leaving this job without another unless I'm told to leave. So I'm just trying to view it all from another plane. This week was hard cause I just didn't feel well and didn't go out at all.

The fact that they know about the court dates and why I have so many doctor appointments etc, is good for sure and may be some of the reasons behind it all.

It's really good to have a life outside of work, thank goodness.