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For as long as I can remember, the Sunday newspaper supplement magazine, Parade has run a yearly feature telling people's salaries in all walks of life. I remember looking at this as a kid and not caring, then as a young adult, comparing, and even now I look at it. It seems celebrity heavy to me. Are we supposed to look and say, aaaah, Jennifer Aniston makes 27 million and Kelly Ripa makes 8 million, cause they took different paths? Tiger Woods, makes $110 million and the golf course keeper makes $72K (cool). I guess, cause I do it. I find it a little hard to believe that a pet sitter/dog walker in Missouri makes $100K, really? I mean, really? Can an aerobics instuctor in Wisconsin really make $78K? What do I know?

Until today, I didn't realize that this comes out on Easter Sunday-is that planned? I don't sense a connection, for the Christians or the pagens or any of us. Resurrection, renewal, spring, everything is possible? Where do you fit on this? Ugh.

Last night I watched the Suzie Orman show. This was depressing in so many ways for me. Nothing to do on Saturday night, no one to hang with, nothing on TV, forgot to rotate my Netflix, nothing to read, tired, bloated and out of sorts from being sick for almost a week, no yoga, too much comfort food, (not comforting), and broke; so I watched. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh. She is compelling and right. But all it did was feed into my all ready morose mood.

I am apparently too stupid too be living. I then went to her website to reinforce this.

I bought nothing yesterday, which is good. I am in savings mode and get it. One hundred years too late.

I am still unmotivated as to how I'm spending my day tomorrow. I couldn't get excited yesterday about museums and trains and city hikes. Might go the outdoor hike route. Low key and slow, wild flowers, etc. I still feel like I'm forcing it. Geez.

In a few hours, I'll be brunching with my CA family, at a place I love. I really hope that all the Easter springtime vibes will sink in. Maybe I just need that chocolate bunny.